It’s like they don’t even want me to try. “Everything is booming!” “We’re doing GREAT!” “Wow, we sure are busy!” Oh . . . is it? We are? Are we? Because I had no idea since I’ve been sitting with an empty inbox and a clear missed calls list.

If I’m one of the last ones to think about, one of the last ones to say “Hey, now there’s a good idea!” or one of the last ones to remember, then maybe something should change. Maybe you should not think of those you’ve had for three years who have still not been successful. Maybe you should try and change it up a bit so you don’t look so predictable and tiresome. Maybe you should give some of us a chance who are in this for all the right reasons.

As discouraged as I feel sometimes, I know I’m on the right path and that I’m going to make it. I keep telling myself these people are all big fish in little ponds and I’m heading towards the ocean, but it’s still hard. Hard to not blame myself. I figure that I must not be leaving a large enough impression on them or kissing their ass as much as I should. But I never tell myself “Maybe I’m not good enough” because I am. And I know I am.

I’m just ready to prove it to the world.

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